I'm working on one

I haven't posted anything because I've been down in the dumps and I don't like posting depressing messages. I don't like posting things that aren't somehow uplifting. However, when you aren't feeling uplifted it's hard to write as though you are.

I am having a couple of rough days and they are taking a toll on me. I know God is good and I know He is with me. And wonder of wonders, I know that He counts each tear I shed as I try to navigate through this new world of being bedridden and feeling as though I'm under house arrest. He will see me through this, but for now I'm working on an entry that says more than this. Right now I'm working on trying to see what God wants me to write as I delve a little deeper into this "new normal" I'm living. It's a hard journey guys, a harder one than I've ever taken and so I'm having to post this to let you know I'm here & I'm thinking. Right now I just need your prayers and support because Memorial Day will mark a solid month since I have left this house (outside of my 3 doctors' appointments) and I am having a hard time.

But, since I hate to be "Debbie Downer" I want to close with a verse that I felt led to read just now:

"Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe." Psalm 61:1-3

Since you will see this is posting at 5:00 am (almost) then you know it was a night of no sleep and that never ends well. Poor M...he'll probably be dealing with a weeping wife tomorrow if not for anything more than simple lack of sleep. I pray you all had a good night's rest and that this Memorial Day weekend is a good one for you and your families. I know I am thankful for the fact that many people fought so that I could live in a country where I could post my random thoughts on a website for all the world to see completely uncensored. I am honored by those who gave their lives so that I might live in a country where I am so accustomed to freedom that I actually take it for granted. In fact, that's part of my downer mood - my body has gotten in the way of my freedom to go and do! So on that note, may we all not take any of our freedoms for granted this weekend!